For The Woman Whose Waiting: Dating
“God, will I ever meet my husband?” I asked him while on my knees during a late night on my bedroom floor. This happened on multiple occasions by the way. Although it felt like every time he probably said yes, I just couldn’t help but doubt and convince myself to be unworthy of such a beautiful blessing. My thoughts of being unwanted, undesirable, and undeserving were so loud I could hardly hear the Lord’s voice.
All I could ever think about is who he was, or if I even deserved to be married someday. Every new guy I met I couldn’t help but wonder if this was finally it. I was willing to “try” any guy thinking that it’d be my responsibility to find him. As if God didn’t already have the. most perfect person picked out for me.
I often found myself to be so unsatisfied with where I was because I just could not stop thinking about my future. Looking back, it seems like I wanted everything but what I had. I just could not wait for the next season. Now let me tell you from even just a small amount of experience, that feeling will likely haunt you at some point no matter what season you’re in. Dissatisfaction is another perfect scheme from Satan to make us not emjoy where our lives are. Which of course robs us of our joy, peace, and just general well being of life.
“I know we just got married, but I can’t wait to have kids!”
“I finally have my own home, but when can we get a bigger one?”
“I know I finally got my dream job, but when can I stay home?”
Does any of this sound familiar?
There is an enemy constantly trying to convince you of all negativity and he is not on your side. But let me tell you about The Good News. The Good News is that someone is on your side, and he is the most powerful of them all.
All your hopes, all your dreams, needs and desires. All your fears, all your doubts, worry and confusion. They are in the hands of the most high, the most powerful, and ever-present God.
I said all of this to say, it is so easy for satan to distract you from the time that is intended to prepare you for those future dreams you have. He knows that God has good for you, so his number one goal is to make sure you don’t get to walk in that blessing. He will stop at nothing to make you hate being single!
I want to encourage women who desire marriage to intently pray for their husbands. Even when you don’t know who they are yet. I remeber on one of those night of praying, throwin glittle small requests in there like “God, and if it’s okay, can he please have a mullet?” and “God, can he PLEASE be a cowboy? Maybe even a blonde one too?” This seemed like an odd request at the time because any guy I’d ever liked or dated before was nothing like that description. It was almost like God had pre-instilled this knowledge into me of who I was going to marry.
Now let me introduce you to my husband, Joshua:
You see those curls back there? It just doesn’t get much better than that!
During the time of singleness, I was hurt so much. I was challenged so much, and pulled on in every direction. The wrong direction. Only to realize how much purpose there ws in that time of my life. To realize without it, I wouldn’t have been in any place to pursue my husband when I did. Be intential with singleness, and know that you are worthy of a Godly marriage.
Submitted by: Bailey Cartwright
